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[Nov. 4th, 2009|06:01 pm] |
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i love riding my awesome new bicycle around town. i found an awesome tunnel that is like a shortcut to work, totally rad. work is so slow this week i'm dying. going to go play basketball at the park with the roommates. baller! i don't even know why i post anything here, i have no friends on here, ahah. |
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[Oct. 27th, 2009|03:08 pm] |
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I love my job. I love my roommates. I love myself. I love that I've lost so much weight. I love my new bicycle. I love where I live. I love life. Go me. :D |
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[May. 6th, 2009|01:05 am] |
I GOT THE JOB AT MASSAGE ENVYYYYY!!!!!
:) |
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[May. 3rd, 2009|10:51 pm] |
I think I'm done. I think I'm ready to come home.
Once again, I've learned that I'm an idiot.
I'm sick of dealing with bullshit.
I don't think he's worth it anymore.
I'm never happy, always depressed when I used to be so happy.
I never do anything anymore.
All I do is mope around the house and work.
I don't even eat anymore. Ever. |
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[Mar. 9th, 2009|06:51 pm] |
I'm done.
Done with trying to make everyone, including myself, happy.
It just never works.
I thought I had found this awesome guy.
Everybody warned me, LIKE EVERYTIME I HAVE A FUCKING BOYFRIEND, but do I ever listen, fuck no. Because I'm way too fucking stubburn. I have to learn my lesson 3654364 before I never learn it. Now I'm stuck, again. Don't know what the fuck to do with my life.
Chris was perfect. Except for the fact that he smokes, ALOT, and he sells it. Then he lost his job, so now all he does ALL DAY LONG is sits at home, smokes, sleeps, smokes again, watches tv, takes a nap, smokes, eats McDonalds, smokes, takes a shit, smokes, smokes, smokes. The guy smokes close to 7-8 blunts A DAY. He now has 2 felonies on his record for possession, and so "he can't get a job". So he sits at home all day and lets his parents pay his rent and bills. Its pathetic. And because he has nothing to do all day he accuses me of cheating on him and talking to guys and he gets mad when I talk to my friends. Ugh, I could go on about complaints. But on a happier note, he would make me smile, make me laugh for days on end, buy me things and he would surprise me. But these things don't happen anymore. And I can never make my mind up on anything that I want to do, I always have a new idea. Like now, I want to move home. I'm sick of AZ and the people in it, except for a select few. I'm tired of feeling alone, having responsibilites. I'm once again thinking about goin on a cruise ship. My friend Nicole just interviewed for it and it seems pretty cool. I dunno though. Just another one of my crazy fucking ideassss. My head is POUNDING. I feel lost, and I feel like my life is out of control and I'm letting my family down. I'm coming home this week. I'll be home Sunday morning to like wednesday so that will be cool.
Meh, I hate life. |
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| Isagenix: Day 1 |
[Jul. 14th, 2008|11:51 am] |
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So today is my first day on this diet thing. I drank a shake this morning, it was alright. I think I'm gonna try mixing it with fruit with my second shake of the day. I feel kinda shaky and faint though, like it wasn't a substantial food for breakfast. And then I take the Natural Accelerator later which boosts my metabolism and then I take the IsaFlush and drink like a million gallons of water. Have some lunch at work. And then when I get home from work I just drink another shake. Hm, I hope this is the answer to my problems. Yay. |
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[May. 25th, 2008|11:27 pm] |
I miss so many people.
P.S. I love you is such a sad movie.
I actually cried during it.
I NEVER fucking cry.
Anyways, coming home.
Stoked.
Way homesick.
I've been going to the gym twice a day.
EXHAUSTED. Fuck.
It's so lonely here without Maddy.
But I don't miss her.
Weird.
Someone come visit me. :( |
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[May. 20th, 2008|12:05 am] |
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Fuck. I hate my hormones right now. |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2008|12:52 am] |
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Agh, life. Whyyyyyy must it be so complicated. Really. Like why can't you say certain things to certain people or talk about certain things around certain people. And why do you say things you don't really mean to someone. Like for example you tell them that you really don't care that you're overweight. But in reality you do. It makes no sense at all. In fact its really kind of annoying because now I feel fake. And if you tell the person, "oh wow I really do care," they might have a hard time trusting what you say. Agh, lame. I'm so over it. I try to be myself but I still end up being someone else. Mikhail says it's just a phase, but I don' know. It's really kind of ridiculous. I'm sure people think I'm crazy weird or not normal. Agh. I just want a good friend who I can talk to out here. I feel so lonely. Sometimes I regret moving out here because I feels like I don't ever talk to anyone back home. :( Meh, okay I'm done feeling sorry for myself. |
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| sooo... |
[Mar. 15th, 2008|12:11 am] |
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..I'm still sick to my stomach. I've been sick all week. Yesterday was Blake's birthday and he somehow got into my LJ and read my locked entry about me wanting him to move out... Yeah, it didn't go down so well. Except he has been acting really emo. He always wants to touch and kiss me and I don't want him to. And then tonight he invited himself to go out drinking. Basically long story short. We broke up, after a much elongated conversation going in circles. And he unpacked all his shit and put it back... wtf. I TOLD YOU I WANT YOU OUT. Lameeee. ugh i'm so over this. a;lfkjalfja;fkjad;fkajfa;lkfja; meh. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2008|07:37 pm] |
I chopped all my hair off.
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| ventage.. |
[Feb. 25th, 2008|12:21 am] |
I hate other people's pet peeves. alfja;fja;ldfja;lkf. grocery shopping when we are all exhausted and hungry and annoyed at each other IS NOT THE GREATEST IDEA.
I miss my friends like crazy. I even miss my sister.
I hate our fucking puppy. I want to get rid of him so bad. I think he's even a bigger idiot than Wendle.. which I didn't even know was possible.
P.S. - I hate having bills... I'm not ready to grow up... I don't want a job... I wish I had a work ethic. :( |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2008|10:31 pm] |
I think this is the most I've ever posted in one day.
This is from MySpace:
Love Compatibility of Capricorn with Pisces
A soft, sensitive and compassionate Pisces will melt your heart, smooth your rough edges and invite you into their inner labyrinth of magic and enchantment. Do you have the courage to leave the real world behind? Your Pisces would argue that the spiritual and creative world he or she lives in isn't any less real than yours. You are immediately captivated by this Fish, who brings the power of love into the hearts of humanity - and into your heart - with caring and compassion. If you can refrain from judging each other, this is a relationship that could last forever. |
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| ..this reminds me of something... |
[Jan. 22nd, 2008|09:04 pm] |
For anyone who ever lost a best friend over a guy by Chris Crocker
i hope his dick makes a good replacement
i hope when you sucked his dick you savored the taste of it
i also hope you tasted my saliva
before it entered your vagina
don't care that he was with me the night before
'cause all that matters to you is the night after
the night you embraced your inner whore
the night you gave up friendship for what you had been wishing for
a dick
a dick of a closetcase
a dick
a dick to make all your problems go away
a dick
a dick to make up for all of your bad days
a dick
a dickhead who got up in your friends face
the face that your new boy once face-fucked
the face that he probably still thinks of
you wanted two men
one your best friend
one your soon-to-be bitch-boyfriend
to fight in your honor
but what honor?
you're a has-been not only to the media
but even a has-been friend
you wanted the shit to hit the fan one last time
you wanted a man to fight me that was almost mine
you got what you wanted and now you can fuck all night
but all the sex in the world won't erase your lies
he can grab your breast implants til' the end of time
you'll still be a waste of life
you said i beat you
so he would beat up your pussy
out of sympathy
you told a lie
to passify your hunger for attention
for dick
i hope it was delicious
sad when i thought what we had
was worth more than a fat slap of flesh
bad when a friend makes a night of it
with a guy i was with not even 24 hours in advance
oh well
life goes on
dicks get harder
pussies get looser
and i get wiser |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2008|02:19 pm] |
So, 31 days until I leave. We need to plan a FAT going away party because I want one last shindig party sickass thing. Yeah! Bomb diggity. Blake is moving in with Maddy and I now. And I have a really good feeling about it all. Even though a lot of people are like no, you shouldn't. But whatever.
I'm watching superbad. And the house cleaner is here and keeps listening in on it at the wrong times. "Funny thing is it's located on my cock." Oops.
We went shopping at Ikea yesterday. It was fun. It was weird because Blake and I bought things for "our room". So weird. |
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[Jan. 5th, 2008|09:01 am] |
How do you forget to bring your girlfriend?
Dumbass.. |
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| Fuck. |
[Dec. 29th, 2007|02:30 am] |
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I forgot to do my driver's training for my ticket that I got. It was supposed to be done like two weeks ago. I'm such a fucking idiot. I JUST remembered right now. Now my insurance is going to go up, just because I rolled a fucking stop sign. And why the fuck can't I sleep. I'm going fucking insane. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Agh. Why can't things go the way I want them too. Blah. Time for some sleeping drugs. ;akja;kjf;kfj. And fucking Myspace isn't working either. What the fuck. Assholes. |
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[Dec. 25th, 2007|09:12 pm] |
I'm crazy head over heels in love.
And it is scaring me to death.
But I am so amazingly happy at the same time.
=) =/ <3 |
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[Dec. 19th, 2007|07:26 pm] |
I had to put Tasha down today. My dad and sister are way too emotional about it. And I figured that it wouldn't matter to me because I hate that dog. But sure enough, I found myself balling in the vet's office. Just like the look on her face when they took her back just about killed me and I felt like a horrible person. Even though her time had definitely come. She was 14 years old and was starting to pee on her self. And she had really bad arthritis and would always bark at nothing. I don't know. But I am sad and my sister is REALLYYY upset. :( What a blah day.
The only cool thing about today is I went to Auto Zone and bought some decals for my car. I got a SWEET that says X'TREME and another one that says 4X4. I am putting both of them on my car. So now I have an X'TREME 4X4 325i BMW. YESSSS haha. I love it. |
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